Monday, December 31, 2012

Happy New Year - Here's to More Ups in 2013

Well, I don't really have any news on my blood clot, no great runs to report, no new weight lifting workouts, and not even any new recipes to share. I feel like blogging right now is getting harder as I don't really have a whole lot to share at the moment.

I never want my blog posts to feel forced or contrived. Right now most everyone is posting about new goals for 2013 or recaps for 2012. I am enjoying reading them, but don't really feel like doing either of those posts right now.

It doesn't mean 2012 wasn't a great year. It was. I got to spend time with my good friend Jessica and meet her hubby. I hit the beach, visited California (where I met Averie and Tiffany), spent time with family and friends, ran 2 half marathons and PR's on one, and found a wonderful running partner and friend.

I do feel like it's ending on a slight down note. But it could be worse, so no major complaining. I will be spending the evening curled up on the couch with Jason, my 2 pups and my sister's dog (we're dog sitting).

It'll be quiet, low-key. No dressing up, no fancy party, no fancy meal. But that's kind of what I want and maybe need right now. Not feeling super festive.

Each year always brings ups and downs. You just hope that the ups outweigh the downs and that you live and learn and grow. So for 2013, I wish you all many many ups! Be safe tonight. 

Happy New Year!


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Friday, December 28, 2012

Anything but Normal Week

This past week has been anything but normal. It was not only a holiday week, but we also had a major winter storm (you can read about it here too). Snow is rare, we usually get ice if anything. So to have ice then 10+ inches of snow piled on top...let's just say the state was not prepared at all. In fact, my city has been basically crippled with hundreds of thousands without power.

My mom, dad, sister are all without power. My boss is without power. And too many friends to name are all still without power and may not have it until next week. People are cold, grouchy, and frustrated right now.

Thankfully we never lost power. But, I missed my hematology appointment. Then the doctors' offices are closed and without power or even phone lines so I ran out of my medication for the blood clot. I am lucky to have a good relationship with my pharmacist though. So again, I'm lucky. I can't imagine how many people aren't able to get their medications or even get into see their doctors right now.

Wednesday night, our friends and their son ended up staying with us. It was their son's 14th birthday poor kid and he's stuck being shuffled around with. But he was a happy camper once we got him set up with his Xbox so he could finally play the games he'd gotten for Christmas.

Then Thursday night, my sister came up to stay until tomorrow (she'll be heading out of town after that). But at least we were able to provide a few people with some heat and food this week.

Luckily I could still work from home. I was scheduled to be off on Wednesday, but supposed to work Thursday and Friday. Of course, it was pretty dead. I wasn't sure who was even around to answer any emails and such.

Anyway, I feel so out of sorts this week that it just doesn't seem much like Fun Facts Friday. So instead I'll just leave you with some pictures of the snow.

Tree outside of my house

A view from the side of my house

Just one of many many trees down

My roses
How does your city or state fair when bad weather hits? Is it prepared or does it get crippled?

Wednesday, December 26, 2012

Family, Friends and a White Christmas

I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas. I decided to take a bit of a blogging break. I sometimes think that bloggers need to remember to do so more often, especially during the holidays. Log off. Live. Enjoy.

That's pretty much what I did. Sunday we spent the day in our hometown for the family "Christmas" day festivities. We started off at my sister's house around noon. The menu was a Mexican theme - tacos, taco salad, that sort of thing.

The kids were pretty much too excited to eat, but they were forced to endure lunch then pictures before presents ;-) Evil evil right?

I think they ended up being a-ok with the delay getting everything they wanted, including their Uncle Jason helping them assemble some crazy complicated Lego deal. When did Lego's get complicated by the way?

A and C decided they wanted to ride with Uncle Jason in our car to our dad's house. Though, Jason was planning a fast stop at his parents' house. The kiddos were excited to meet his mom and dad, but my sister and I missed that memo so were confused when the kept going and missed the turn off to our dad's house.

Dad's was good - traditional Italian fair like spaghetti and meatballs. Ok, it's not so simple now. Dad makes meatless sauce for me, gluten-free meatballs for my sister then regular for everyone else. God love him for trying so hard for his crazy daughters!

Monday was a little more low-key. It was another beautiful day though - sunny 60's. We met up with dear friends for lunch. They were in town from Baltimore with their newborn. It was a wonderful lunch with even better company.

We ended up picking up a Thunder Shirt for Heath while we were in the shopping center; they have a doggy shop there. Oh, and I found some great deals at DSW - Merry early Christmas to me LOL.

Heath loved loved his Thunder Shirt. He was so excited when Jason put it on him. Then Maddie got jealous so we put her sweater on her and she felt just as special. I swear, they're like children.

I'm so glad we got that shirt when we did. We ended up having storms then ice, then snow (as in 10 inches) Tuesday (Christmas Day). We pretty much never get snow, so even the slightest bit sends everyone into a tizzy. Store shelves are emptied and people are ready to be snowed in for days on end.

What happens often is we get lots of ice, power outages, slick roads and minimal snow. This time we had the ice, outages, trees down, slick roads but then the snow came, and came, and kept on coming down. It was beautiful and so peaceful. But I was lucky to have electricity and heat and feel so terrible for those who didn't (including some of my friends).

The snow was so crisp and vibrant this morning. Maddie loves it, Heath...not so much.




I won't make this post any longer than it is. I was supposed to have my hematology appointment today, but not sure if it'll be canceled due to the weather and road situations. I hope everyone is safe and warm wherever you are!


Friday, December 21, 2012

Fun Facts Friday - Random Realizations

I don't really have any news to report. I do go see a hematologist next week. Hopefully we can figure out the cause of the clot. Basically more waiting.

Let's just jump right into Fun Facts Friday. I had thought about doing a running survey that many of you guys have been doing. I may do that one later. But working from home and being pretty much home day and night for 2 weeks now, I've had plenty of time to have lots of absolutely random thoughts.

Some of the fun facts are observations, some completely random with no rhyme or reason. Just for fun ;-)

  • I don't have as many pairs of yoga pants as I thought.
  • I've gotten so lazy that I didn't even bother to do hair or makeup for doctor's visit.
  • It's been a week since I've done my hair and it's kind of nice.
  • It's been a week since I've put on "real" clothes.
  • My dogs behave only if I work from the living room. In the kitchen they act like bickering 4-year olds. No, they won't go to living room without me.
 
  • I ate an entire spaghetti squash myself this week, having it for lunch each day topped with peas, tofu, tomatoes, and spicy hummnut (hummus + nutritional yeast).

  • If I didn't eat the spaghetti squash, it was a sweet potato with half a jar of jalapenos and Daiya cheese.

  • I've grown to utterly dislike Paula Deen's laugh/cackle.

  • While I love Giada, she likes her food way too much. No one makes that many noises when they taste their food. MMMM, ooohhh, mmmm, squeal....it's SO good. 

  • Not running, lifting, kickboxing daily means half the laundry. I knew I did a lot of laundry but this was an eye-opener.
  • I did not do holiday cards this year and feel kind of bad about it each time I get one in the mail. But I've been noticing most cards are family pictures. I kind of miss seeing real cards with real signatures.
 Your turn. What's one random thing from this week?

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Creamy Chipotle Pumpkin Soup & Way to Go Wednesday

Spicy
Sometimes I think it's interesting how people (I) end up coming up with the meal for the evening or a new recipe for that matter. Sometimes I do sit around thinking of new flavor combos, textures, and such. Other times, the recipe and/or meal happens because I have something else that needs to be used.

Last night I had some homemade ciabatta that I wanted to go ahead and use before it ended up being wasted. That would just be a travesty right?

Soup sounded like the appropriate fit for the bread - you know, so you could sop up something yummy with it. I have a pretty decent stash of pumpkin right now, so I decided on a pumpkin soup. But I didn't want a mild soup. I've actually been craving super spicy foods recently. I always like spice, but it's been way out of control all of the sudden.

I had some chipotles in adobo sauce, so I decided to go with the smoky flavor profiles. Pumpkin can be really mild, almost sweet, so it can pair well with heat (in my opinion). I wanted creamy, and I wanted to make sure to include protein, so I used a silken tofu to give it creamy texture sans cream. 

Creamy Chipotle Pumpkin Soup (v, gf)
Ingredients:
1 small yellow onion, diced
2 tbsp minced garlic
1 large can pumpkin puree (28-32oz)
1 package firm silken tofu
2-3 chipotles plus some of the adobo sauce (to taste)
28-32 oz no-salt vegetable broth
To taste: salt, cumin, red pepper, chilli powder

Directions:
In a large soup pot, saute onions and garlic. Add in remaining ingredients. Use either an immersion blender or regular blender, puree until smooth.

Return to heat and allow to simmer approximately 30 minutes. Re-season as needed.

I'll admit that it was pretty spicy. But I love the smokiness from chipotle peppers as well as the cumin and chilli powder. You could easily adapt this to your heat preferences. And if you can't have soy, I think that almond milk would work or perhaps adding in some cashew cream. Speaking of cashew cream, I think a swirl on top of the soup would have been lovely.

Way to Go Wednesday
It's that time of week again - Way to Go Wednesday. As always, please share your shout outs for the week!

Danielle at It's a Harleyyy Life for being able to race after having a broken sternum.

Team Zippy (Amanda & her daughter and her son & his friend) kicked booty at the Rudolph Run 4-mile relay. The boys took 2nd overall male and the girls took 3rd overall female!

MizFit for her new E-Book - How to Build Muscle and Lose Weight Without Losing Your Mind.\

Pavement Runner for an awesome year of running that included 12 races and 38 miles "for fun." 

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Tofu White Bean Steaks & A Recap

Recapping
This weekend was pretty good. I was able to get out of the house for a bit on Saturday. Jason and I walked close to 4 miles before getting ready. I actually put on real clothes, did my makeup AND hair. I felt human again. The weather was fantastic - about 70 degrees and sunny.

The first stop was my piece of hell on earth - Toys R Us. I needed to get a doll for my niece and had a Groupon that could only be used in stores. Of course. I would have gone earlier, but the whole blood clot ordeal has cramped my style. I walked in and the lines were all the way into the aisles. Carts piled high with toys, and screaming, crying, cranky kids abound. Fun.

I found the doll quickly and was so lucky to have ended up in line behind a very kind lady. I think she saw the terror in my eyes as I clutched that darn doll tightly. She let me go in front of her as I only had the one item. I guess some people are still kind after all.

We had a few more stops to make for other gifts that I had not been able to go shopping for. Then we met up with some friends at a place called Bosco's. They have a patio that overlooks the river. Hard to beat a patio lunch in December.

Sunday, I walked with my running buddy. It was hard to not want to run with her, but we just chit chatted for 4 miles, meandering the neighborhood, checking out houses and holiday decor. After the walk, I basically just stayed in the rest of the day.

Yesterday I had a follow-up doctor's visit. I didn't really expect to hear anything new, and I didn't. He does think that the clot is starting to dissolve at about the same rate it would if I were on Coumadin. The vein and swelling has definitely gone down compared to what it did look like. I do have a slight achiness in my clavicle area. 

He wants me to see a hematologist this week. Apparently the lab did not run the hypercoagulation panel that the doctor had requested. So he feels it would be ideal for me to see a specialist at this point, especially considering I'm acting as a guinea pig with the new medication. 

Steak Night
Last night Jason wanted me to use the fingerling potatoes he had picked up. We also had some green beans that needed to be cooked before they went bad. I ended up going with more of a "meat" and potatoes type of dish. This made Jason happy of course.

I didn't have any homemade setian on hand or any other meatless cutlet/steak for that matter. I didn't have enough vital wheat gluten to make seitan either. So I decided to get a little creative and come up with something a little heartier than simply baking off tofu.

Tofu White Bean Steaks
Ingredients:
1 package extra firm tofu, pressed for about 30 mins.
1 can cannellini beans, rinsed and drained
3 tbsp nutritional yeast flakes
1 tbsp dried onion flakes
Liquid smoke (to taste)
To taste: salt, white pepper, thyme, red pepper flakes, garlic powder
Oat flour, approximately 1/2 cup
Ground flax seeds, approximately 1/4 cup

Directions:
Preheat oven to 400 degrees.

In a food processor, combine all ingredients minus the oat flour and flax. 

Transfer to a large mixing bowl and mix in the flour and flax until well combined adding more flour as needed. You want it to be fairly firm. Re-season if needed.

Form into steaks or patties and place on a prepared baking sheet. Bake for 20 minutes then flip and bake another 20 minutes or until firm and golden.

 

I made an easy mushroom sauce by sauteeing white onions until soft then adding in a variety of mushrooms, garlic, salt, pepper, thyme, vegetable broth and whole grain mustard and allowing that to simmer and reduce.

I was very pleased with how the steaks turned out and so was Jason. I actually made a few into patties so we can enjoy as burgers later in the week.

Monday, December 17, 2012

A Day of Silence

Today I'm joining many other bloggers in a day of silence in remembrance of the victims of Friday's horrific events in Newtown, CT.

I will post health updates tomorrow.




Friday, December 14, 2012

Fun Facts Friday - Lessons Learned From Being Home

I almost went another route with Fun Facts Friday, but since I've been working from home and put on exercise sabaticle, I thought I'd share some random things I've learned since discovering I have this blood clot.

Though, I did finally get to go for a walk yesterday - 1.5 miles. I am so glad we have mild weather. It was sunny, about 54 degrees. Definitely cooler for walking vs running, but I was happy to be moving at least.

So, here are some things I've learned from being idle, from working at home, and being able to do no more than go for a walk.

  • I have more patience than I ever realized
  • I have never been more thankful to be able to work than I am now - I can't imagine not having work to do and being stuck home
  • Walking takes way longer than I expected 
  • I love waking up, brushing teeth, putting in contacts and simply walking downstairs to start work
  • I actually felt more vulnerable walking vs running
  • People tend to look at you a little funnier when you're walking in the road vs. running in the road
  • Sidewalks aren't nearly as dangerous when you're walking
  • You don't warm up quite the same walking as with running
  • Walking is not calming to me like running is
  • Fresh air and sunshine should never be taken for granted
  • I miss lifting weights
  • I am someone who does really well working from home
  • I do have to remind myself to change my yoga pants/tops/and warm fuzzy socks
  • Heath snores more than I realized and Maddie likes to bark randomly most likely to scare the crap out of me and wake up the snoring Heath
  • I think it's good to get fixed up or you feel like you're sick, off work, or just being lazy
  • I have no idea how people willingly choose to be idle - I understand if you can't, but if you are capable of moving....why sit? 

  • Daytime tv kind of sucks - even my beloved Food Network and HGTV channels are old old old
  • Watching too much Food Network makes you do crazy things like make cupcakes from scratch even if you don't eat them
What are some lessons you've learned from a prolonged illness, being idle, working from home, or starting over with exercise?

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

No News on Way to Go Wednesday

Well, not much to report for me, so let's just go right on to more important things - Way to Go Wednesday. Honestly, I really love this post the most each week now. I think it's so important to give kudos to everyone for working so hard - running, lifting, baking, following dreams - you all deserve shout outs.

Tina for taking on Half #5 despite a week of being sick!

Laura (Mommy Run Fast) for a new half marathon PR at the TriGirl Half Marathon. Nicely done!!

Mindy (Mindy's Fitness Journey) for surviving her Tough Mudder. 

Heather for being selected to be an official blogger for the 2013 Cleveland Marathon.

Kristina's dad (Kris from SpaBettie) for being positive and optimistic during a difficult time. It's not always easy.

Heather (Running with Sass) for running her 17th half marathon!

Who do you want to give a shout out to? And if you want to share them with me before Wednesday, I'd be glad to add them to the posts!

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Follow-Up Doctor's Visit and Friends

Doctor's Visit Follow Up
I've had so many of you asking how the doctor's visit went yesterday. So, I thought I'd do a quick post to share with you all.

Basically, not much to report. The good news is that the swelling, redness, pain that was all around my neck area is definitely going down. That's great because it means I can do simple things like raise up my arm without pain.

Of course, as that feels better, it makes it harder to remember that I still have this clot. Of course, if you look at my neck, you can see the vein straining out.

The bad news was that it could take 6-8 weeks for the clot to completely dissolve. I was hoping for more like 2-3 weeks. He did say that on Thursday he thought it would be ok for me to at least get out for a walk and said that we would slowly start adding back in activity. He also suggested doing a heat compress, that it might help the dissolving process. You better believe I'm trying it out!

My initial panel of blood work all came back clear. They are waiting on the results from more in-depth genetic testing results now. The major concern is getting rid of the clot, then trying to figure out exactly why it happened. The way he sees it, I'm a healthy, 38-year old woman who's very active. There's not really any reason that I should have a clot like this. And we definitely don't want it to happen again.

GNI
My friend "A" came over after she got off work so we could watch a movie, visit, eat, visit. Basically a Girls' Night In. I made some tempeh and black bean enchiladas (in casserole form) topped with lots of gooey Daiya of course.

She brought over a movie, Forget Me Not. It was a British movie. I'll admit that it started off very slowly. We probably ended up missing quite a bit at the beginning because we were chatting. But it felt like there was one song being played for at least 10 minutes.

Luckily, it did pick up the pace and turned out to be a pretty decent movie. "A" did suggest that it could have easily been a play. There are really only 2 characters that you're following.

It was so nice having "A" stop by to visit. I think you really start to figure out who your friends are when you need friends the most. They don't have to be the people you've known the longest or even have met in person for that matter. I had posted that on Facebook and my mom sent me the following:



Monday, December 10, 2012

Thank You Vegan Chocolate Cupcakes

Blown Away
Gosh, you guys sure know how to make a girl teary-eyed. I want to thank everyone for your incredible words of kindness, support, and positivity after Friday's post.

And the support went above and beyond with so many of you dedicating your miles or workouts to me. Seriously, you have no idea how much that means to me. Thank you ladies for running and lifting for me!

Jen from Running with the Girls

Kierston at Candy Fit

Christine from Love Life Surf

Angela from Happy Fit Mama

Jolene at Determined to Be

I also appreciate all of your emails, direct messages, Facebook and twitter messages. Seriously blown away by the support of so many people who've never even met me. It's just amazing. Simply amazing.

The Weekend
This weekend was actually pretty good. My sister was in town on Friday for a follow-up appointment for my nephew. So, she stopped by the house and also took me to Hobby Lobby so I could pick up some picture frames. Unfortunately she didn't stay the night. Jason and I ended up just playing cards and listening to music.

Saturday, however, my sis ended up coming back up for a visit. She had offered to help clean or anything like that. But I really just needed to get out of the house for a bit. I know I shouldn't have gone anywhere, but....I did.

She took me to Target and then we went to the mall for a bit. She found some great deals. I didn't, but that's ok. We went back to the house and just visited until my friends C & T came by. They brought pizzas for everyone from Pizza Cafe.

Luckily it was warm enough so we could sit outside and enjoy the food and company outdoors just as if we were at Pizza Cafe's patio, only better. It was so nice of them to stop by and visit. It really made my day, spending it with my sister and friends.

Sunday I behave and didn't leave the house. Jason was really great and he ran the errands that I wanted to do. He also got the lights on the Christmas tree and outside of the house. I got the ornaments on the tree finally so it at least looks like Christmas around here.

While he was out, I ended up making some Vegan Chocolate Cupcakes with an Orange "Buttercream" Frosting. I have clearly been watching far too much Food Network to decide I needed to make cupcakes. I don't even care for cupcakes, let alone chocolate cupcakes. If I could share these with all of you as a Thank You, I would in a heartbeat!

After searching around for recipes, I semi-followed these two recipes for the cupcakes and the frosting


My changes: For the cupcakes I split the oil using 1/2 coconut oil and 1/2 vegetable oil. I wasn't sure how the coconut oil would do as I've not used it much at all. So I thought splitting it would be safer. I used 2/4 cups of organic sugar and 1/4 cup of the NuNaturals Baking Blend to cut back on the sugar. I was out of vanilla extract so I used both NuNaturals Liquid Vanilla Stevia and Orange Stevia.

For the frosting, I added in both NuNaturals Liquid Vanilla Stevia and Orange Stevia and used less almond milk.

My running buddy stopped by for a visit. I had some kale and grapes to give to her (they have vitamin K, which is a coagulant and I need to cut back on for now) as well as some of the cupcakes of course. She loves cupcakes and has a daughter who wanted a non-iced one.

We had a nice visit. It was really great having her stop by and just chat. Usually we're talking while running so it was nice to talk sitting for a change ;-)

Besides being thankful for all the well-wishes and kind words, I'm very lucky that my bosses have gotten me remote access. This means I can work from home, which should make the doctor very happy. So today, I'm home and I also have my first follow-up appointment at 1:30. Not really sure if they'll find any changes so soon, but I'm trying to be hopeful. 

Friday, December 7, 2012

Answering Some Questions About Blood Clot

I didn't really feel up to writing a Fun Facts Friday post. Right now I'm not feeling too "fun." I have had so many of you email me asking more about what's going on, what a blood clot means, and how I'm being treated.

So, I thought I'd answer a few questions, maybe share some of my feelings about this as well.

How Did it Happen?
Last Friday I had gone for a run, come back and stretched like normal. I stood up to roll up my yoga mat and felt a strange, almost pinch near my clavicle. I pushed around trying to pinpoint the cause of the pain, but never could find "the spot."

Saturday I kept feeling strange pain but didn't really think much of it. Sunday morning, however, I woke up with a swelling right at my clavicle. It hurt like crazy and just continued to get worse throughout the day.

The whole area near my clavicle was swollen, red, hot. There is a lymph node right in that area called the supraclavicular lymph node. Since I had been suffering from allergies, I thought perhaps it was that lymph node even though that's not a lymph node that would normally swell or become infected due to sinuses.

It was definitely worse on Monday, so I called and got in to see a doctor, a new one thankfully. He too thought it was the supraclavicular lymph node. Infections are hot, red, swollen. So it made sense, sort of. My sinus problems weren't caused by an infection thankfully, just allergies. He was going to give me a steroid shot that would have cleared that all up, but the lymph node situation was far worse so he wanted to treat aggressively.

Tuesday it was worse, so I went back. He gave me another very painful antibiotic shot. He told me to come back Wednesday then again Thursday. Honestly, I skipped Wednesday's appointment because I couldn't stand another shot. Thursday, however, it was not any better, so I readily went in.

My appointment was 8:15. I thought I'd be at work by 9:30 at the latest, where I'd eat breakfast. After checking it, he sent me directly to the hospital to have an ultrasound. He suggested it could be a blood clot. So off I went, tummy starting to grumble of course. After about 2 hours spent at the hospital, it was indeed confirmed - blood clot in the left jugular.

As for how or why I got it, not sure. Right now they just want to treat it then worry about everything else later. 

Treatment
I was told the doctor wanted to treat me as outpatient and to head back to his office. The guys who did the ultrasound said, "You're really lucky." Meaning I was lucky I wasn't being admitted right then.

The reason I wasn't admitted is because my doctor wanted me to try a new therapy to dissolve the clot. Normally, patients are admitted to the hospital for a lengthy stay so the administering of medication (essential rat poison) can be very closely watch. That's followed by at-home injections.

This new therapy is using a medication called Xarelto. It's an anticoagulant typically used to prevent new clots. Luckily there are very minimal side effects. The biggest side effects are dizziness and bleeding.

How Do I Feel?
Honestly, not as crappy as you'd think. I am fatigued. I've been sleeping 10-11 hours easily. I've been a little short of breath as well. But other than that, I don't feel terrible. That kind of makes it worse, because I'm already antsy to move.

What Can I Do?
I've been told absolutely no exercise, no walking, nada, zero, zip, zilch. Sit. Sit. Sit. For someone who works out 6 days a week, runs 30-35 miles a week, lifts, does kickboxing, etc., this is like being in prison.

Dangers
The dangers of this are of course quite serious. It's not uncommon. My doctor tried to allay my fears saying that he does see clots weekly. However, the problem is really about making sure that it doesn't get dislodged and move. Hence no moving.

If it did get dislodged it could go to my lung or, worse, my heart. So yes, this is pretty serious. But, I've already had people say they've had clots or know someone and they've made it through without any problems. In fact, my doctor's nurse had one in her lung. She told me this trying to reassure me. And it was reassuring. But it's still scary.

So...
That's really it. I've got a clot. I'm not supposed to do much of anything. And I've cried a lot (which is not good for allergy ridden sinuses).

I am really trying to stay positive. It's not easy, but I'm trying. I appreciate the well-wishes, emails, direct messages, etc. They really mean so much. So thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Thursday, December 6, 2012

Blood Clot and Thankful Thursday

Well, this morning I went back to the doctor thinking I'd end up with another painful antibiotic shot. Instead I was sent to the hospital for an ultrasound. The concern was a blood clot in my neck. I wish I would have eaten breakfast is all I can say. I had expected to be at work by the time they were checking me in to the hospital.

Long story short - blood clot. My doctor wanted to try a new treatment using Xarelto rather than put me in the hospital for the traditional treatment.

All I know is that I'm kind of scared. I was told not to do anything either so any form of stress relief I have always turned to, running or lifting, I can no longer do. I don't know how long I'm going to be unable to be active either. My course of medication is 21 days with frequent trips back for blood work and monitoring.

So today I need to find things to be thankful for rather than worrying about something I can't fix right away.

I'm thankful for:

My husband for either making dinner or making sure to really help me out with dinner since I've been sick. And is by my side right now.

Friends who have randomly emailed or sent me messages checking in on me.

Pink Lady Apples

Source: google.com via Shelly on Pinterest


Yoga pants - I've kind of been living in them recently.

For finding a doctor that I actually feel like I trust and who listens rather than tries to just rush me out.

My dad and step-mom for sending me a cute get-well-soon e-card


For my mom and sister who have been an ear for me.

What are you most thankful for today?

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

Still Resting and Way to Go Wednesday

Well, this week is pretty boring in terms of workouts or meals or anything really. Basically, I've been parked on the couch since Saturday. I did go to the doctor Monday AND again Tuesday.

The good news is that my sinus woes are just allergies and not an infection. And they are starting to clear up finally. So I no longer need this fancy contraption, though it sure would have come in handy.

Source: imgfave.com via Ina on Pinterest


The bad news is that I have a very angry lymph node right at my left clavicle. Not a normal spot for a node to be inflamed due to allergies. Note to self - do not look up such things on the internet. You'll scare the piss out of yourself.

So I've now had 2 very very painful antibiotic shots, have sore bum cheeks, and am on a round of antibiotics as well as pain medication. I am supposed to go back daily to have the infected area checked and if it doesn't start to get better then we'll move on to scans and probably other really fun tests. Good times.

But, I don't want to be a Debbie Downer. So moving on to something much more positive and inspiring - Way to Go Wednesday. These guys deserve shout outs for just being plain awesome.

Mr. Pavement runner for kicking some major butt with his first 50 mile endurance race.

Tiffany (Running Hutch) for running her first ultra - the Ridgecrest 50K.

Meg at RunFitKin for an awesome PR at the California International Marathon.

Kierston for going back to her Taekwon-Do roots.

Krysten for kicking major ass this year and ringing in a new one - Happy Birthday!

Your turn - who do you want to give a shout out to?

Monday, December 3, 2012

Sick not "Sick" Weekend

Well, I must say this weekend was so not as planned. I mentioned last week that I was feeling kind of cruddy. And it never went away.

Friday I was off work. My plan was to go ahead and get in my 10-mile run then get my hair cut then spend the rest of the day with my sister. I woke up still really stuffy, sore throat, sinus headache. But I went ahead and headed out for my run.

I got in 5.4 miles before stopping by the house to meet up with Jason and to change from short-sleeved shirt to tank. It was already in the mid-60's and humid. The run wasn't easy. It was tough and tougher because I kept going faster than necessary. I don't know if it was just a "let's just get this shit over with" thing or what, but I was going way too fast. I was way too sick. And it was way too warm.

Jason did 3.6 miles with me and I called it done with all caps at 9 miles. I rushed to get cleaned up and to my hair appointment, then met my sister at Target. I had regular shopping to do and she wanted to do some Christmas shopping. Then we headed over to the mall for a bit.

The crazy thing was that she sounded just like me except her crud has hit her chest and I've managed to keep mine out of my chest. So I feel like I'm winning even though I'm loosing.

We did go out and meet up with friends for a very very brief happy hour before going home and putting on PJs and just visiting the rest of the evening. I will say that even though both of us were cruddy, we did have a great time. I always love her company.

Saturday I realized that I was done. There would be no running, no workouts of any shape or form. And that pretty much was the rest of the weekend - me on the couch in PJs going through a box of tissues.

Though, I did manage to wash some laundry, make ciabatta bread and an amazing caramelized onion and Japanese eggplant concoction that we enjoyed Sunday for lunch. But other than that, PJs and booty on the couch.

I kind of had it in my head that if I did nothing Saturday, I'd miraculously be better on Sunday. I could make up for the day of nothing by getting in a run, putting up my Christmas decorations. Yep, that's what I thought.

That's not what happened. Sunday I woke up with a crazy swollen lymph node near my clavicle. At least my throat wasn't as sore... 

I won't lie, I felt like a slug just sitting, dozing, sitting, blowing my nose. I don't sit still very well, but I had no choice this time. So 3 rest days for the week and maybe a few more...Going to try to get to the doctor today.

How do you do with just sitting when you're sick? Do you take that chance to rest up with no guilt or do you find yourself feeling guilty for not being able to do anything?